Becoming an American Citizen

So after so many years I am finally doing it. I know I should have done it like 7 years ago but I just could not bring myself to doing it. Here is why. I feel like I have betrayed who I am, first by leaving my country, family and friends, I came to this country for one reason and that was to follow my happiness, to marry the man that I love and to start a new life. I didn't think twice when I did it, don't get me wrong, I don't regret that. But I didn't really think about what I had to do to stay in this country, I feel like I have to give up a big part of myself, by becoming a citizen I would be giving up in paper what I am, I know that it wont change the way people look at me in this world and that is why it bothers me that I have to do it. If only what would change so many things. Dan still doesn't get and I try to explain it to so many people. I like this country, this is where my family is, where I want my kids to grow up and if I want to be with them I have to do it. So this week I am sending my paperwork and then I'll just have to wait, pass the test and get over with. In my heart I will always be "Guatemalteca" and very proud of it. Of course my accent proves it. I will try to pass on all my traditions to my kids and their kids. I wont forget who I am.